i thought this picture would be fitting.

once upon a time i went to a girlfriends bday dinner. it was at a sushi joint and i almost didnt go because i couldnt find anything to wear. i got there, found parking, walked in late, she greeted me and showed me to my seat… and my seat was next to a verrry cute boy. as soon as he looked at me i was done. i was in love. now, i know that sounds crazy but its truth. it was completely and utterly love at first sight- for me atleast. 

fast forward me making advances on him… to how nervous i was on our first date… to him introducing me to his entire family on our second date and by the third date i was his.

we were so in love. so ridiculous, insurmountable, completely, and hopelessly in love. the kind of love that makes you happy for no reason and makes your heart smile. the kind of love that no one can bring you down from or take away. it was always spring in December. and no one could take my sunshine away.

well, we were in love. were. past tense… as in, of the past, no longer, kaput (like my heart- just kidding- totally not kidding). just like season change, people change. this love story was supposed to be the most beautiful kind of love story about two people who loved and cared alot for each other.. just two crazy kids, young, in love and not really knowing or caring about anything else. it was most definitely supposed to be the kind of love story that can ony end one way, in old age, in the hospital with one clutching the others hand wishing it was them in that bed.

BUT NO- thats not how this one plays out. this one starts beautifully… and ends terribly. with one person sitting at their computer singing this sad love song about their very own shooting star love affair with someone magical and brilliant and downright amazing. 

and now it feels like he hates me and who knows if the sun will ever come out again.